Tuesday 5 May 2015

[Write] A Letter to His Future One, From the Current (Past) One

Background: This is something I found while rearranging my documents in my PC. Felt its a kind of waste if I just trashed it out so, here is it. It was written during the days when I'm still in a relationship with my 3-year long boyfriend and I guess something hits me, hence with this hidden letter. I don't think it still means anything but I do know that when writing this letter, its all from the bottom of my heart.

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Dear Ms Future, 

I know this may not even reach your hand but if this does, I hope you read it all with patience and wouldn’t doubt my intention of this letter. I just want you to prepare yourself for what you’re facing. Understand who he is before jumping and receiving his love. I never want to see him hurt again.

If you are reading this, I assume you would have know that I am the longest girl he been with after his mother. You would have known that we had shared plenty of moments together, let it be sad or happy ones. You perhaps knew that we even planned out for our future together. You should be able to predict that I knew him from the inside out.

That’s the purpose of this letter. I’m not here to show off how much we had shared. I’m sharing you how much you can know about him, without him knowing himself.

For the first, he’s a super conservative person. He lives by the core of no revealing clothes. And not to mention, super protective. Your life will be evolving only around him. He will be angry if you went out at night. No alcohol, no clubs. He hated it if there is any presence of other guys who put themselves close to you. He is a guy with high level of jealousy. Trust me. Just a mention of how some stranger is cute and he will go sulking most of the time.

But don’t get him wrong. He’s protective because he’s afraid that you might be harmed. He will silently blame himself if anything happens to you. You would want him to tell you by himself but he will always be at lost of words. You find him constantly jealous because he was worried that he might not be good enough for you. Any thought of the possibility of losing you scares him a lot.

You must be able to endure the fact that you will be sharing his love with his mother. He can’t put only you in the centre of his life. You will soon be constantly angry, jealous and complaining about his attention towards his mum. I won’t ask you to hold it back but just reduced it at the minimum.

He wasn’t brought up in a happy and secure family thus leaving him having the need of wanting something or rather someone safe with him all the time.

I have to admit that sometimes he’s a pain in the ass, a sort of asshole. I even went to the time where I gave him cold shoulder for a period of time. It’s easy at first because I don’t have to see him and we just communicate through texting. But difficulties come when we’re meeting because I just couldn’t resist his innocent face. I melted from my icy self with his warm touch.

He’s a man that loves sports and outdoor kind of guy. He hates running so don’t make him go with you on any runs. He loves basketball but don’t bother to ask him to bring you along. Out of 10 pleades, he might bring you for once. Reasons? He doesn’t want the guys there to stare at you but deep down, he’s afraid you might be bored while he enjoys himself.


Be patient to him, talk to him and don’t hide from him. Reason with him with promises that you can keep. He can be the sweetest guy ever if you let him. His remarks may be mean but you can find yourself forgiving him if you love him enough. He loves to talk about things that happen in the past. Be enthusiastic and attentive. Be a good listener. As I described, he is a complicated and messed-up person as how you and I can be. Keep him up and loves him tenderly with all your heart.

He is a challenge and a dear at the same time. He’s a badass but a gentleman too. He may have lots of hatred but he has a big loving heart.
If you still decided to stay with him after this letter, I wish the two of you with complete happiness. It may not be a good sight for me to see both of your love blooming but knowing him in the right hand, I’m happy enough.


Yours sincerely,
Ms Past


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